Taking on the 30 day challenge!

I haven't written on my blog for the past two days. I meant to get on and write but I was going through a spell of uncontrollable hormones. Sunday was supposed to be a great day with my family. But ended up turning into a game of tug a war for my emotions. I woke up in high spirits and went to bed feeling like garbage. When I go on one of my spells I tend to step on those that I love. I snap and I push people until they push back.
Monday morning consisted of me trying to get the strength to smile. I am trying this new thing where I don't let people see that I am upset.
so moving on.... (today is a new day)
I have consulted a personal trainer about wanting to lose weight and how much and how fast I wanted to lose it. He gave me this protein shake thing for the mornings before I go work out. I have always worked out on an empty stomach and eaten breakfast after. So eating before working out just means that I am going to have to wake up earlier then usual ( crying..sopping...making a puppy dog face)
he also told me that I have to stick to 1500 calories a day! I am still crying over this one. This means that snacks are out of the picture. I hope that I can stick to this. But I have nothing to lose(except weight!). The least I can do is try this for a whole month and since July is around the corner what perfect time to start then now? So when I asked him how many pounds I can lose in 30 days doing this. He says real causally 20 pounds. I kind of laughed out loud. But he looked at me straight in the eye and said. "seriously, if you stick to the plan and you really want it. 20 pounds"...so I don't know if I can take his word for it. So I am going to give it a try starting tomorrow. I will keep you guys posted.