The scale is not the boss

I used to only go by the number on the scale to measure my progress. And sometimes it would report a loss and others times a gain! When it reports a loss I am on cloud nine and I feel amazing..but when it reports a gain. I cry, scream, curse, and eventually find my way to the freezer where I keep my ice cream..and I eat a spoonful and then that spoonful leads to another and then another...... ( you get the picture)

well I realized that by doing this I was only hurting my progress. I could weigh in at 204.8 on Friday and due to the excessive eating weigh in at 208.8 on Monday. Now I know that they say it takes 3000 plus calories to gain a pound. But I have a body that hates me. I can gain a pound from eating a big mac....and that is without the fries and soda. I have a horrible metabolism. So I have to be picky with what I am eating.

Yes I am that girl that reads every label and counts every calorie, gram, cup you name it. But its what helps keep me conscious of what I should and should not be eating. Don't get me wrong I still have my slice of pizza or burger on occasion. But it is all in moderation. That is the key to losing and not feeling deprived is moderation.

My other forms of measuring success are; measuring inches, trying on clothes that didn't fit before, timing my runs or workouts, and my emotions. If I am happy and feel well rested then I must be doing something right. Besides part of losing the weight is also losing the insecurities and doubts along with the fat!

So here are some updates. At the beginning of the month 06/01/2011 I began Jillian Michael's 30 day shred.

SW:208.8
CW:206.2

inches:06/01/2011
Arm:15.5
Waist:45
Hips:49
Thigh:26

inches:06/30/2011
Arm:15
Waist:43
Hips:45
Thigh:24.5

over all 2.6lbs loss and 8 inches lost in 30 days. Not bad if I do say so myself. Tomorrow I start Jillian's shredded in 30 days I will post starting weight and inches and total loss on 07/31/2011.

I am back!

I have been MIA for some time, but I am back with a Bam. This time I am going to be taking you on my weight loss journey and keep you updated. I have attempted to keep blogging before but somehow always end up quiting after a few posts. ( but I am back for sure now!)

Let's see what has changed since my last post... oh the depression is almost gone.. I say almost because she decides to come and go as she pleases. I refer to depression as a her because she is me on a bad day..lol

ok so here are the current numbers.
SW:247.0
CW:206.6

that means that I have lost a total of 40.4lbs since my baby was born I still have 61.6lbs to go to my goal weight....seems like a long way but I am almost half way there.

Its funny how much pressure we put on ourselves to be thin. As if being thin somehow equals perfection. In my case I would have to say that it does equal perfection. I tend to try harder at life when I am thin...because in my world thin me = happy me. but I think that the same can be said by everyone. We feel prettier when we can fit into clothing and when we don't have to suck it in at the beach.

Any way that is it for now.. but I will post some more tonight and maybe some pictures..if I am brave enough!