A new goal

I am determined to lose the last 25 pounds of my pregnancy by 12/31/2011... I know that it can be done.... I have to push myself. because I am worth this...I am worth the effort and this is my life.

so ready, get set...go!

feeling the love

I get so caught up in the drama of trying to lose weight that I forget to take a step back and breath...life is good.

this is something that I struggle with everyday, but I think that we all do. We get caught up in the what if's and someday's when that truth is someday is now!

why wait until your thin to dress up? why wait until you feel sexy to run?

I am happy to be me today, I hope that this doesn't go away anytime soon. I am looking forward to getting the old me back.

I decided to not focus on numbers for the rest of the month...we will see how this new approach pans out.

I will not be tracking or weighing in until 07/31/2011
I am going to focus on listening to my body and going off of how I feel.

The Big Number

We have all heard it before the number on the scale does not define who you are. But it always ends up being by the number that you define who you are. my number has not moved under 204 for about 6 months and it is ruining my moral. I no longer believe that I can get my number under 200, or that I can achieve

But I have a plan!

I am no longer going to focus on the number...the scale is being tossed out the window instead I will be focusing my time on my family, my mind, and my running. I ran a mile yesterday..time 16 min flat I would like to get my mile down to 14 min by the end of the month and then next month I will be focusing on 2 miles in under 20 mins...yikes but my 5k is around the corner so I have to step it up!

Hope you are all having a fabulous week!

Blind no more.....

This weekend I went to the lake for the fireworks... and as I sat in my one piece and looked at all the girls around me. I realized something. I am no longer looking at the bodies as fat and skinny. I am starting to look at them as healthy toned, to not healthy and not tonned.

I am tired of being so hard on myself for not being thin, so I am deciding to focus on the good things about my body and the healthy changes that I am making. I used to think that skinny was the way to go but I am starting to realize that a healthy lean and atheletic body is what I want.

Hope you all had a good weekend :)

oh I am on day 2 of the ripped in 30

Perfection

I tend to be a perfectionist when it comes to how people view me. I stress out about how I look, what I am saying, or how I react. And if I have a slip up and make a jackass of myself... I tend to let it ruin my day.

it can be tiring trying to achieve approval from everyone...( but I still do it) I really want to focus on not worrying so much about what other people think. It is hard to ignore others because as humans we thrive on approval..we want to be in the "in" crowd.

But at what costs?

I used to allow people to walk all over me and as a result I ended up in one bad relationship after another. When I grew thicker skin I became selfish it was all about me and my needs.

and then I had a baby, and I am now struggling with balance. I hope that I can achieve this balance soon so that I might be a good influence on my children and those around me.


so enough of that lets move on the the Important stuff..lol
I start Jillian's shredded in 30 days tonight and I will be posting start weight and measurements tomorrow and a short post on my experience. Happy Friday everyone!