The new info.

So yesterday I had mentioned that I wanted to someday do a Iron Man Triathlon. So today I have spent most of my morning researching diets and workouts to prepare. I had no idea that it was going to be so difficult. But I am willing and I want it to badly. I want to be a good example for the girls, and I want to shut everyone up who gave me the look of, Yeah right. When I told them. I am determined. It is going to be hard.
But fist things first. I have to get serious about training for my first 5k race ever! I am so excited. but I have a lot to do before then(I can't even run 1 mile without wheezing and coughing.) But I still have 10 weeks until the race. So the hardcore training begins today!
I am looking forward to the challenge, and also the hot body that will result from the hard work as well :)........(I am only half kidding) I want to be able to wear a tank top without having to hide my arm jelly with an over shirt.
Alright I should get going, But I hope that you all have a wonderful weekend.

An Update.....

OK so it has been about a week since my last post. And for that I am sorry. I have been so busy. I am getting ready to move and have been training for my 5k race in October. I start school next month and I move next week. I am going to be exhausted. My baby is doing great. She is starting to get an attitude like mine. I am having one of my awesome days. I feel so happy, accomplished, and motivated. I sat down today and wrote down everything that I want to accomplish by the end of 2012. One of them. I want to do an IRON MAN TRIATHLON. (SERIOUSLY)
Alright, enough about the future. Here are my 30-day challenge updates:
1.LAST WEEKEND I HAD TOO MUCH FUN WITH THE FAM. I GAINED 3 POUNDS BACK.
2.AS OF TODAY I HAVE LOST THE 3 POUNDS AND HAVE ABOUT 8 DAYS TO LOSE 10 LBS.
3.STILL WORKING OUT EVERYDAY.
4.STARTED DRINKING MORE WATER(this is helping me from snacking)
Alright you guys I will try to write tomorrow. I hope you all have a great Friday!

Motherhood...........

I went to the movies last night and didn’t get home until 12:00am so needless to say I did not run today. But I will work out today (and yes you can hold me to it) I will do palates tonight (After I take a nap of course). I have worked so hard to lose the first 10 pounds. And I refuse to gain a single pound back. Even with ten pounds sliced off of me I still feel unattractive. I look in the mirror and I just want to take my finger and shove it down my throat! Why must I feel this way? Why can’t I just feel beautiful, sexy, or at least pretty? It is sad to say that yes I want to be sexy. I think it’s because sexy is confidence. Why can’t I have that? I wish someone would have told me all the changes that my body was going to undergo when I got knocked up. Instead all I ever heard growing up was don’t get pregnant because delivery hurts. I think that if today’s youth was taught in school more about the hormone changes instead of just don’t do it because pregnancy ruins your life and you run a risk of getting an STD. they would wait to have sex until they were married and ready to have children. I truly believe that if teenage girls were taught that you get fat, depressed, and memory loss, they would run away from the guy instead of getting them to commit. I love my baby and I am blessed to have her. But I can’t imagine going through this as a child, I am 23 and still not fully mature to handle all of these changes. I need and will teach my daughter to respect her body and to have confidence so that she will not have to seek it elsewhere. Sex is something only adults should be permitted to do. There are too many feelings involved and consciences. I will make sure my daughter is fully educated.

The first 10 pounds are off!

I spent the other night going through old boxes and organizing. I am a pack rat by heart so needless to say I had a lot of junk.(junk is putting it lightly….I had receipts from 2003..8p) When I got to a bag full of jeans I cringed a little I didn’t want to try them on. But I remembered the purpose of going through my things was to get rid of the unnecessary and to keep only the things that I knew I would keep. So I walked over to the bedroom door and locked it. The last thing that I wanted was someone walking in on me trying to worm my way into a pair of jeans. So I closed my eyes and started to pull the pants up. To my surprise they slipped past my hips and when I attempted to zip them up they zipped right up. I just laughed I was so happy. It has been almost a year since I have been able to wear a pair of jeans. I was no longer hesitant I pulled jeans after jeans and tried them all on. (they all fit!)
After this tiny bit of reassurance I am looking forward to shedding more pounds! This morning before I went for my run (Run! Yes run……I can run again!) I stepped onto the scale. I am down to 217lbs…this means that I have officially lost 10 pounds! I feel so accomplished so relieved that my efforts are not being met without reward. I have 10 more pounds to lose before the end of the month to meet my goal. I am looking forward to losing this overgrown person that I have morphed into.

Almost halfway there.......

I stepped onto the scale today not really expecting to have dropped anymore weight. But I have dropped another pound. Altogether that makes 9 pounds. I am one pound away from meeting half my weight goal loss in 30 days. I have 17 days left and 11 pounds to complete the 30 day challenge. I am so excited I have told myself that I can’t by a new outfit until I have reached 200lbs. Which I hope is soon because I am itching to go shopping. I knew that having a family would be hard, but I guess I didn’t realize how hard it would be. Don’t get me wrong I love it! But sometimes I feel as if I am not doing enough or that I am not doing the right thing. I am going through a downer today. I feel so overwhelmed with the responsibilities that I have taken on. I am no longer just responsible for myself but for the well being of my entire family. After I got off the scale and took a shower I stared at my body in the mirror. I am not going to lie I cried a little bit. Every time I look in the mirror I only notice the negative things about myself. I never allow myself to see the positives. In my eyes there is always room for improvement.
Why is that we compare our bodies to other peoples? I am told that I am cute….but what I really want to hear is that I am beautiful. I sat down this morning in front of the computer and I stared at pictures of celebrities. They always make it look so simple as if looking that good comes so naturally to them. I don’t think that I am ugly but I don’t think that I am beautiful either. I want and I yearn to be looked at as if I am the only person that matters in my boyfriends eyes. Sometimes I ask myself whether I am trying to get into shape for everyone else or for myself. When I sit down and think about it. It hits me I am doing it for my daughter. I want her to learn to love herself for how she is and to treat her body right. I don’t want her to see me self conscience and start to look at herself in a negative way. She is already a happy baby I want to keep her that way. I want her to have the confidence that I was never able to achieve.

5lbs down...(new goal)

I started to get out of bed this morning when my baby girl started to scream her head off. I was alarmed because she rarely cries. I ran over and picked her up. She looked at me and smiled. (I guess she just misses her mama) I get up early workout and then leave for work. I usually don’t see her until I get home from work. This past weekend I had a 3 day weekend and I guess that she was happy to have me around. She was tied to my waist 24/7 for those three days. So instead of going for my walk I did my palates video so that I could have more time with her. I am proud to say that I am now down to 222lbs which means I lost a total of 5 pounds so far in just 8 days! I am so excited about this(I could possibly be running in a few weeks!) after this 30day challenge is over I have a new goal set for myself.
NEW GOAL: Create a team for the Susan G. Komen race for the cure
• I want to raise 1000.00 dollars(more would be awesome!)
• If you are in the Reno area. Please join my team. We can create a team t-shirt and we will have so much fun doing it!(if interested e-mail me at Angela.j.ruiz@live.com)

Update after a long weekend......

I haven’t written in my blog for a few days, but I am proud to say that I have stuck to the plan. I am now down to 223lbs and hope to be down to at least 219lbs by next Monday. I did not stick to my usual workout this weekend, because I spent my entire weekend swimming, hiking, and running around with my girls. I am extremely sore right now. All my activity this weekend helped keep me guilt free after eating two slices of pizza with my girls(I don’t consider this cheating as it was eaten in moderation and I did not exceed my calories for the day)
This weekend was amazing I had so much fun with my family. This weekend opened my eyes a little more. It has made me appreciate my boyfriend a lot more. I know that we are going to last forever. I love him and he loves me. What else do you need? I am going to keep this post short. I have a lot to do today. I just wanted to keep you all posted on my progress.
I HOPE YOU ALL HAD A WONDERFUL 4TH OF JULY!!!!

Day two.......

Day two…
I spent most of last night shopping with my family. It was the most fun I have had in a long. I miss shopping! There is something so liberating in walking up and down the aisles looking. The high that you get from swiping plastic is one that can’t be matched.(I know I am a shopaholic!) But I got some really cute stuff for my girls, and a new pair of running shoes. So it’s not like did some needless spending. After leaving the department store we went to the grocery store. While I was gathering the things off of my list of things that I can eat. I was surprised when my boyfriend turned to me and asked me if I could eat the seaweed that he was holding up. I giggled and hugged him and said “just cook your regular dinners and I will worry about portioning it” (smiling……) I am glad that he is supporting me through this. But I don’t expect him to keep up with my calories. He already does so much for me.(you know its love when someone supports you and tries to help) So with all the shopping I am sad to say that I didn’t get to bed until 12:33am this was a horrible idea. Because I had to get back up at 5:00am but what are you going to do when you have a family to take of? So in case you’re wondering…yes! I did get up at 5:00 am this morning. I tried to avoid the work out but my daughter helped get me out. After I got her changed and fed. I ate my breakfast and worked out. So day two is done and I owe it all to my daughter for getting me out of bed!(I am going to go to bed as soon as I get home!) So to my readers there are many excuses to make not to get out of bed in the morning to work out, But the reward of just doing it is so much greater than the extra hour of sleep.