I am determined to lose the last 25 pounds of my pregnancy by 12/31/2011... I know that it can be done.... I have to push myself. because I am worth this...I am worth the effort and this is my life.
so ready, get set...go!
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
feeling the love
I get so caught up in the drama of trying to lose weight that I forget to take a step back and breath...life is good.
this is something that I struggle with everyday, but I think that we all do. We get caught up in the what if's and someday's when that truth is someday is now!
why wait until your thin to dress up? why wait until you feel sexy to run?
I am happy to be me today, I hope that this doesn't go away anytime soon. I am looking forward to getting the old me back.
I decided to not focus on numbers for the rest of the month...we will see how this new approach pans out.
I will not be tracking or weighing in until 07/31/2011
I am going to focus on listening to my body and going off of how I feel.
this is something that I struggle with everyday, but I think that we all do. We get caught up in the what if's and someday's when that truth is someday is now!
why wait until your thin to dress up? why wait until you feel sexy to run?
I am happy to be me today, I hope that this doesn't go away anytime soon. I am looking forward to getting the old me back.
I decided to not focus on numbers for the rest of the month...we will see how this new approach pans out.
I will not be tracking or weighing in until 07/31/2011
I am going to focus on listening to my body and going off of how I feel.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
The Big Number
We have all heard it before the number on the scale does not define who you are. But it always ends up being by the number that you define who you are. my number has not moved under 204 for about 6 months and it is ruining my moral. I no longer believe that I can get my number under 200, or that I can achieve
But I have a plan!
I am no longer going to focus on the number...the scale is being tossed out the window instead I will be focusing my time on my family, my mind, and my running. I ran a mile yesterday..time 16 min flat I would like to get my mile down to 14 min by the end of the month and then next month I will be focusing on 2 miles in under 20 mins...yikes but my 5k is around the corner so I have to step it up!
Hope you are all having a fabulous week!
But I have a plan!
I am no longer going to focus on the number...the scale is being tossed out the window instead I will be focusing my time on my family, my mind, and my running. I ran a mile yesterday..time 16 min flat I would like to get my mile down to 14 min by the end of the month and then next month I will be focusing on 2 miles in under 20 mins...yikes but my 5k is around the corner so I have to step it up!
Hope you are all having a fabulous week!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Blind no more.....
This weekend I went to the lake for the fireworks... and as I sat in my one piece and looked at all the girls around me. I realized something. I am no longer looking at the bodies as fat and skinny. I am starting to look at them as healthy toned, to not healthy and not tonned.
I am tired of being so hard on myself for not being thin, so I am deciding to focus on the good things about my body and the healthy changes that I am making. I used to think that skinny was the way to go but I am starting to realize that a healthy lean and atheletic body is what I want.
Hope you all had a good weekend :)
oh I am on day 2 of the ripped in 30
I am tired of being so hard on myself for not being thin, so I am deciding to focus on the good things about my body and the healthy changes that I am making. I used to think that skinny was the way to go but I am starting to realize that a healthy lean and atheletic body is what I want.
Hope you all had a good weekend :)
oh I am on day 2 of the ripped in 30
Friday, July 1, 2011
Perfection
I tend to be a perfectionist when it comes to how people view me. I stress out about how I look, what I am saying, or how I react. And if I have a slip up and make a jackass of myself... I tend to let it ruin my day.
it can be tiring trying to achieve approval from everyone...( but I still do it) I really want to focus on not worrying so much about what other people think. It is hard to ignore others because as humans we thrive on approval..we want to be in the "in" crowd.
But at what costs?
I used to allow people to walk all over me and as a result I ended up in one bad relationship after another. When I grew thicker skin I became selfish it was all about me and my needs.
and then I had a baby, and I am now struggling with balance. I hope that I can achieve this balance soon so that I might be a good influence on my children and those around me.
so enough of that lets move on the the Important stuff..lol
I start Jillian's shredded in 30 days tonight and I will be posting start weight and measurements tomorrow and a short post on my experience. Happy Friday everyone!
it can be tiring trying to achieve approval from everyone...( but I still do it) I really want to focus on not worrying so much about what other people think. It is hard to ignore others because as humans we thrive on approval..we want to be in the "in" crowd.
But at what costs?
I used to allow people to walk all over me and as a result I ended up in one bad relationship after another. When I grew thicker skin I became selfish it was all about me and my needs.
and then I had a baby, and I am now struggling with balance. I hope that I can achieve this balance soon so that I might be a good influence on my children and those around me.
so enough of that lets move on the the Important stuff..lol
I start Jillian's shredded in 30 days tonight and I will be posting start weight and measurements tomorrow and a short post on my experience. Happy Friday everyone!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
The scale is not the boss
I used to only go by the number on the scale to measure my progress. And sometimes it would report a loss and others times a gain! When it reports a loss I am on cloud nine and I feel amazing..but when it reports a gain. I cry, scream, curse, and eventually find my way to the freezer where I keep my ice cream..and I eat a spoonful and then that spoonful leads to another and then another...... ( you get the picture)
well I realized that by doing this I was only hurting my progress. I could weigh in at 204.8 on Friday and due to the excessive eating weigh in at 208.8 on Monday. Now I know that they say it takes 3000 plus calories to gain a pound. But I have a body that hates me. I can gain a pound from eating a big mac....and that is without the fries and soda. I have a horrible metabolism. So I have to be picky with what I am eating.
Yes I am that girl that reads every label and counts every calorie, gram, cup you name it. But its what helps keep me conscious of what I should and should not be eating. Don't get me wrong I still have my slice of pizza or burger on occasion. But it is all in moderation. That is the key to losing and not feeling deprived is moderation.
My other forms of measuring success are; measuring inches, trying on clothes that didn't fit before, timing my runs or workouts, and my emotions. If I am happy and feel well rested then I must be doing something right. Besides part of losing the weight is also losing the insecurities and doubts along with the fat!
So here are some updates. At the beginning of the month 06/01/2011 I began Jillian Michael's 30 day shred.
SW:208.8
CW:206.2
inches:06/01/2011
Arm:15.5
Waist:45
Hips:49
Thigh:26
inches:06/30/2011
Arm:15
Waist:43
Hips:45
Thigh:24.5
over all 2.6lbs loss and 8 inches lost in 30 days. Not bad if I do say so myself. Tomorrow I start Jillian's shredded in 30 days I will post starting weight and inches and total loss on 07/31/2011.
well I realized that by doing this I was only hurting my progress. I could weigh in at 204.8 on Friday and due to the excessive eating weigh in at 208.8 on Monday. Now I know that they say it takes 3000 plus calories to gain a pound. But I have a body that hates me. I can gain a pound from eating a big mac....and that is without the fries and soda. I have a horrible metabolism. So I have to be picky with what I am eating.
Yes I am that girl that reads every label and counts every calorie, gram, cup you name it. But its what helps keep me conscious of what I should and should not be eating. Don't get me wrong I still have my slice of pizza or burger on occasion. But it is all in moderation. That is the key to losing and not feeling deprived is moderation.
My other forms of measuring success are; measuring inches, trying on clothes that didn't fit before, timing my runs or workouts, and my emotions. If I am happy and feel well rested then I must be doing something right. Besides part of losing the weight is also losing the insecurities and doubts along with the fat!
So here are some updates. At the beginning of the month 06/01/2011 I began Jillian Michael's 30 day shred.
SW:208.8
CW:206.2
inches:06/01/2011
Arm:15.5
Waist:45
Hips:49
Thigh:26
inches:06/30/2011
Arm:15
Waist:43
Hips:45
Thigh:24.5
over all 2.6lbs loss and 8 inches lost in 30 days. Not bad if I do say so myself. Tomorrow I start Jillian's shredded in 30 days I will post starting weight and inches and total loss on 07/31/2011.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
I am back!
I have been MIA for some time, but I am back with a Bam. This time I am going to be taking you on my weight loss journey and keep you updated. I have attempted to keep blogging before but somehow always end up quiting after a few posts. ( but I am back for sure now!)
Let's see what has changed since my last post... oh the depression is almost gone.. I say almost because she decides to come and go as she pleases. I refer to depression as a her because she is me on a bad day..lol
ok so here are the current numbers.
SW:247.0
CW:206.6
that means that I have lost a total of 40.4lbs since my baby was born I still have 61.6lbs to go to my goal weight....seems like a long way but I am almost half way there.
Its funny how much pressure we put on ourselves to be thin. As if being thin somehow equals perfection. In my case I would have to say that it does equal perfection. I tend to try harder at life when I am thin...because in my world thin me = happy me. but I think that the same can be said by everyone. We feel prettier when we can fit into clothing and when we don't have to suck it in at the beach.
Any way that is it for now.. but I will post some more tonight and maybe some pictures..if I am brave enough!
Let's see what has changed since my last post... oh the depression is almost gone.. I say almost because she decides to come and go as she pleases. I refer to depression as a her because she is me on a bad day..lol
ok so here are the current numbers.
SW:247.0
CW:206.6
that means that I have lost a total of 40.4lbs since my baby was born I still have 61.6lbs to go to my goal weight....seems like a long way but I am almost half way there.
Its funny how much pressure we put on ourselves to be thin. As if being thin somehow equals perfection. In my case I would have to say that it does equal perfection. I tend to try harder at life when I am thin...because in my world thin me = happy me. but I think that the same can be said by everyone. We feel prettier when we can fit into clothing and when we don't have to suck it in at the beach.
Any way that is it for now.. but I will post some more tonight and maybe some pictures..if I am brave enough!
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