Adventure

I have always been too up tight. I am so focused on Tomorrow and what it might bring. I never take the time to do something that I really want to do. So this year is still fresh. I am going to make it the best year so far of my short life. But right now I have to get back to work. I will write some more tonight.

Day's 2-3: Sleep deprived

I am tired, hungry, and stressed out. I am trying to remain calm under the pressures of my life. But the more we ignore things...it seems the harder they try to get our attention. I was once told that if you want to do something...then nothing should stand in my way... But what about sleep? I need it right?( well maybe not.. that is why I have coffee!)

No but seriously. What am I doing to myself. I want to be thin ( I mean healthy..) so I get up at 4:30 am everyday..on top of staying up until at least 11pm so I can study...then going to work for 8 hours sometimes more? What is wrong with the picture here?

I need a break...even if for just one day. I dunno maybe tomorrow will be better.

I stepped on the scale this morning and it reported a gain... ( what!?) But I am attributing it to the sleep deprivation ( hopefully...crossing my fingers)

Anyway off to get some sleep. I will have an update tomorrow.

Day One: Learning to re-track my food

We've all heard it before........ diet and exercise= weight loss. But where did the fine print go? have you stopped to think.. hey what happens when all the weight is off? Can I go directly back to eating the way that I was before?

Well my friends the answer to this question should be more then obvious. the answer is no. So no losing weight doesn't miraculously make you resistant to weight gain. You can and will gain it all back if you don't learn how to eat.( that is eat right)

A well balanced diet is the key to your weight loss. Easy right? Well I thought so. But as it turns out I went the entire day without any fruit only 32 ounces of water and have over extended my daily allowance of carbs. Did I over eat you ask? No I didn't I stayed within my calorie range..( how? I dunno I guess by cutting portions)

So I guess what my point is that anyone can be on a diet...anyone can cut calories. But the real trick is to learn how to get all your veggies, fruits, carbs, protein, fat, and calories at the same time. This has proven to be the most challenging part of my weight loss journey. But hey I can't be doing to bad... I have lost 44 pounds by half a**ing it. But now I am stuck at 203lbs and I am itching to get the scale to move.

But my question today is.." why is it so hard to stay away from fast food?" Is it because its good or because it is easy? I wish I knew. Also what constitutes fast food? the fact that its pre-packaged, nuked, or loaded with preservatives?

In my world of mother hood, working parent ,and book worm. Pre-packaged seems to be the answer. But the truth is...... America..no wait this world is fat, unhealthy, and getting more and more brainless by the generation....so at least for today I have done my part. I tracked my food and managed to get half of my daily water intake so tomorrow will be a better day.... Who knows I might even eat some fruit.

hello everyone

First of all I would like to thank any and all of you that have continued to read my blog. ( although I have not written in a long time)
This time you have my word that I am back for good. ( and yes my word is good)

I am tired of being fat, emotional, angry, and insecure. So I am dedicating my time once a day to reflect in my blog. ( and hopefully something good will come out of it)

So here is an over view for anyone who cares to read and follow my blog...
1. I am 23 years old (next week I will be turning 24...but I am trying to ignore my b-day this year)
2. I have 2 step daughters and a 9 month old daughter. ( these are the people that have inspired my change)
3. I am getting married in July.
4. I am mother who works full time, works out everyday, goes to bible studies and goes to school for nursing.

And on top of all of this. I am tired!

Tired off all the Bul*s*** why are people so mean? Why do you care if I am a good mother? What is the deal with you always trying to get me to eat the wrong things? What do you gain out of my misery and failure? (by you I mean people in general)

So this is the start of a new journey for me, so stay tuned. I hope that my experiences can help someone..maybe. Then again just read to enjoy.

So here is the big plan!

First Goal: drop down to 182 lbs by my daughters first birthday ( 04/30/2011)

Current weight : 203lbs

Second Goal: Drop down to 156lbs by my wedding ( 07/24/2011)

Finish Bible this year and go to church every Sunday: Currently in New Testament ( book Mathew)

*** Last but not least: Lose the crazy! ( yes! I am crazy...but at least I can admit it)

So here we go. So sit back; read, comment if you must and enjoy the roller coaster.