My life so far.....

I haven't written in my post for awhile. I have been busy.Although that is no excuse for not keeping up with my blog. I should have taken time out of my day to write. So here are updates for my readers. I lost 12 pounds last month. Not exactly 20 pounds but I am not going to lie. I cheated a few days out of those 30. So really 12 pounds is not bad. So today I am starting another 30 day challange. I am also still training for my run in october. I am able to run half a mile without coughing up a lung!
I moved out of my sisters house. I have been feeling guilty about it. Although I don't know why I do. I did what I believed to be the best thing for me and my family. Where do you draw the line between your "Family" and your family? My whole life I have struggled to keep everyone happy. I always put thier needs before mine. But I can no longer do that. I feel like I am sufficating. I love my sisters and my dad but I love my family as well. I wish that they didn't have to make me feel like I have to choose between them.
I spent most of this weekend crying myself to sleep. I want my daugher to be happy I want her to have an amazing life. But how can I provide this if I myself am not happy? I have always felt left out from my sisters. We have nothing in common and most of the time I end up being more of a mother to them then an older sister. I am stuck!
But I have to move on. I guess you would call it cutting your losses. I can't afford to contiue to allow my family to suck the life out of me. I need to focus on my babies and my future husband. I may have not had control over which family I was born into. But I have control over what kind of family my daughters have.
So in my life so far.....
1. I am half way to losing all of my baby weight.
2. I start school this month and by the end of 2012 I should have my RN.
3. I have three girls and a man that I am in love with.
4. Starting to take care of my needs.

I WILL KEEP YOU ALL POSTED. HAVE A GREAT DAY!