Last Night......

Last night I couldn't’t sleep. I was overwhelmed with worries and “what if’s”…what if I don’t get all of my grant from the school? ….what if I don’t lose all the baby weight fast?......What if it takes longer to get my RN?......all these questions and more stayed with me most of the night. So there I was sitting on the bed and hyperventilating. When around 12:30 am my boyfriend walked into the room to get something. When he noticed that I was still wide awake.
“why are you still up?” he asked.
With just that one question I was overwhelmed; I spilled out to him and began to cry. He just sighed and hugged me.
“You always worry too much.”
“No I don’t…” I fought back
He chuckled and hugged me. “You need to learn how to worry about the things that are happening now not tomorrow.”
“What do you mean?” I asked, I was confused, aren’t you suppose to worry about the future?
“Try this, worry about two things that are happening right now like, Evelyn wants to be held and the dishes need to be washed, and then worry about one thing in the future like school starts in two weeks.”
After he said that it was like a light bulb went off. He was right I need to focus on today or tomorrow will be here and I would have worried over nothing and missed my life right now. So starting today I am going to try that. Taking a deep breath in and allowing life to takes its course. If I continue to stress the way that I do, soon I will suffer from a heart attack.
So I am off, I am planning a weekend full of fun and adventure for my family and I. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!