Perfection

I tend to be a perfectionist when it comes to how people view me. I stress out about how I look, what I am saying, or how I react. And if I have a slip up and make a jackass of myself... I tend to let it ruin my day.

it can be tiring trying to achieve approval from everyone...( but I still do it) I really want to focus on not worrying so much about what other people think. It is hard to ignore others because as humans we thrive on approval..we want to be in the "in" crowd.

But at what costs?

I used to allow people to walk all over me and as a result I ended up in one bad relationship after another. When I grew thicker skin I became selfish it was all about me and my needs.

and then I had a baby, and I am now struggling with balance. I hope that I can achieve this balance soon so that I might be a good influence on my children and those around me.


so enough of that lets move on the the Important stuff..lol
I start Jillian's shredded in 30 days tonight and I will be posting start weight and measurements tomorrow and a short post on my experience. Happy Friday everyone!