hello everyone

First of all I would like to thank any and all of you that have continued to read my blog. ( although I have not written in a long time)
This time you have my word that I am back for good. ( and yes my word is good)

I am tired of being fat, emotional, angry, and insecure. So I am dedicating my time once a day to reflect in my blog. ( and hopefully something good will come out of it)

So here is an over view for anyone who cares to read and follow my blog...
1. I am 23 years old (next week I will be turning 24...but I am trying to ignore my b-day this year)
2. I have 2 step daughters and a 9 month old daughter. ( these are the people that have inspired my change)
3. I am getting married in July.
4. I am mother who works full time, works out everyday, goes to bible studies and goes to school for nursing.

And on top of all of this. I am tired!

Tired off all the Bul*s*** why are people so mean? Why do you care if I am a good mother? What is the deal with you always trying to get me to eat the wrong things? What do you gain out of my misery and failure? (by you I mean people in general)

So this is the start of a new journey for me, so stay tuned. I hope that my experiences can help someone..maybe. Then again just read to enjoy.

So here is the big plan!

First Goal: drop down to 182 lbs by my daughters first birthday ( 04/30/2011)

Current weight : 203lbs

Second Goal: Drop down to 156lbs by my wedding ( 07/24/2011)

Finish Bible this year and go to church every Sunday: Currently in New Testament ( book Mathew)

*** Last but not least: Lose the crazy! ( yes! I am crazy...but at least I can admit it)

So here we go. So sit back; read, comment if you must and enjoy the roller coaster.